Indulgence

My therapist said that trying to avoid feeling a crush will only make it worse. So, in the name of curing my crush, I’m going to indulge in venting out all of the details. I think it all started about a year ago, when I started talking to a neighbor who also has PTSD. I…

Dizzy

It seems that my ex who I had a restraining order against for five years has been working across the street from the college where I’ve been taking a yoga class for the past couple of months. (Last time I had checked, he had been living out of town.) I found out because he got…

In Time

Once I defended myself, you disappearedInto the frosty abyss of betrayalLeaving me to defrost my own icicles We learned wounds could warp timeAll our moments lost in secondsThen seconds slowed into painful eternities Everyone who loves me hates youSome encourage me to seek revengeAll’s fair in love and war Time releases me from your bondI…

Big Date

She raids her closetFor a long-awaited dateNight out on the townWith someone incredibleSoon she’ll be en routeTo see the Christmas light showShe adorns herselfIn her best accessoriesDressed up to the ninesShe selects items saved forSpecial occasionsLike her favorite gray scarfSparkly stilettosOld Italian charm braceletKarl Lagerfeld purseTo calm her nerves she mixesHer favorite drinkA mug of…

Dear Me

Could you quit beating me upThis face is good enoughThese braids are good enoughThis waist is small enough, thick enough,Whatever-you-want-it-to-be enough It can’t last forever, can it?Today was such a dark dayI kept thinking it was nightGetting shocked at the sunlightOver and over again Why do I feel so uglyI just don’t want to feel…

Down to Stay

Hard to getChase me downDown on my luckDowntown rooftop barBar and small bitesBar set highHigh on 6th floorHigh like you and II feel so prettyI order a lemon dropDrop some acidDrop some money Money for pork bellyMoney for valetValet for $20Valet saves my feetFeet in red suedeFeet in high heelsHeels click quicklyHeels stopStop suddenlyStop for…

Criminal Cheese

There’s a man buying cheeseFrom the cheap bulk aisleIn the grocery storeAnd he hasn’t even noticed meBut I’ve been staring him downFixated on him, can’t look away There’s a man choosing cheeseIn a blue and grey hoodieBlonde hair, mostly salty nowGlasses, goatee grown outIf I cared about my safetyI’d walk the other way A wolf…

Pat in the Hood

I’d like to think I’m not a liar, butI sure lied to youWhen I ran from all my doubts, andJumped into liking you. If I were completely honest,Well, it wasn’t just you–I was accidentally awful, too. I loved him the whole time…I just projected it onto you…But, we both know thatYou knew that. You knew….

50 Shades of Smack

50 Shades of GreyIs a series about a girl named Anastasia SteeleWith atrocious self-esteem, who makes terrible decisionsWhich must be why I relate to her so much The Lonely Lady will do anythingIn hopes of being Swept AwayBy a narcissistic sociopath named Christian Even though she’s beautiful and intelligentShe falls for all of his Indecent…

He Slowed Time

Betrayal turns time upside downThere should be minutes in every hourBut there are hours in every minute, instead I used to live to hike through the forestBut now I numbly exercise to keep my heart healthySince you ripped out what was left of my broken heart They say that real love healsBut what if your…