That Pain

This is that pain that you can write with That pain you can change lives with The kind of pain to turn a person kind The cruel pain that can make an angel cruel The kind I can barely even see through So much power in this pain It feels more powerful than me Like…

Guilty

Blatant bold-faced lie“I just need to be alone”Five minutes laterI’m flirting with someone elseThinking, he’s so hotMaking sure to play it calm(Wish I had with you)Lust punches me in the gutChased by sudden guiltTelling myself it’s okayI’m sure you’ve moved onPerhaps this firefighterCan help me get over you This was originally going to be my…

Give and Take (blog post)

One thing that’s hard about blogging, and about life in general, is the fact that I always feel like I need to pretend to be feeling better than I am. I’ve learned the hard way not to share my real feelings candidly. People run away, which I guess makes sense, cause I have PTSD. My…

We Are Never Getting Back Together

Another Shadorma for Tanka Tuesday Misery Loves Company Sibling loss Unique misery Trauma bond Grief glues us Loss role played out forever Dead connection sought Unhealthy Otherworldly love All for naught Let’s cremate Resuscitation won’t breed Reincarnation

Harmless Shadorma

A Shadorma for Tanka Tuesday Harmless Am I old? It’s been twelve weeks since He touched me Late at night Slyly sneaks to dark office Screen girls are eighteen Motherhood Temple sacrificed Queen Consort Devalued Crown conceded to create Life without a king

First Amanda’s Pinch

First and Last Date Remembering a date from many years agoWith a lawyer who I was not attracted toThought I could keep my cool and be politeUntil he went in for a kissUntil he went in for a kissIn his gilded car under the moonlightI felt repulsed by him, didn’t know what to doJumped out…

The Anna

Trees Turned us intoAncient damaged redwoodsSet us aflame during a droughtFire resistance aged our youthful faces My love for him still evergreenAlthough he cut us downThe fall brings peace The Anna was a bit of a challenge to write 🙂 Post written for Weekly Prompts Wednesday Challenge-Trees and My Name Poetry Scavenger Hunt All photos…

Drowning

Drowning Let’s try approaching it from a different angle. I remember love, before love turned my real life story into something that is indecent to write down. Once upon a time, love murdered me. He grabbed me from my vibrant life, and ripped me apart at the seams. Once I was split, he tried to…

Shadorma Tuesday

4:20a.m. What better time to write my first Shadorma. Breaking Up With Not My Boyfriend It’s overNow I won’t get toSee his blueEyes sparkleOr leave purple love bites onThe crook of his neck He’s so madSaid he’s done with meHe’ll neverTalk to meThen blocked my cell phone numberAlways stonewalling Well, you knowI’m quick to temperSo…

Evan

This guy Evan just came up in my Bumble feed. I’m not sure exactly how it works, but so far, every single person that I’ve swiped right on has been a match, meaning they’ve already swiped right on me. So… Evan swiped right on me? Does Evan not remember me? I think I was 23…….