Stonewalls

Recovery lostHopeless addiction to youIt’s become toxicYour stone walls poison my heartWhy can’t we communicate? Friends with benefitsDon’t want a relationshipBut how are we friends?We can’t get close or go outYou’re just borrowing my warmth I might find some peaceIf I could leave you aloneThis is killing meHow dare you drink up my loveWithout reciprocating…

Better

Will I ever really be better? What even is better anymore? I’ve been back on anti-depressants for about two weeks. Today I noticed myself thinking about topics… as in… thinking about things other than flashbacks. And sometimes, for a minute, I’ll think I’m starting to feel normal again.. And then everything just hits me all…