Calm Scars (nsfw)

And now, silence.The rain has paused. This eye of the stormReminds me of usIn our calm phase Waking up to texts from youAnd the way all my bloodWould drain down my spineThen fly back up as butterfliesEvery time you called me“Babe” Before I met youI knew the cycles of abuseLove bombing, honeymoon,Calm, tension building The…

Games

I’m tired of his chess gamePoisoning my brainRuminating, “He loves me, he loves me not,”Anxiety round the clockI need to escape But I’m impregnatedWith his DNABlindsided by the news, I hop on a planeTo see my familyDiscuss my options Since I’d rather be deadThan grow old with himI research scholarships for single parentsHoping for a…

Chicken Hawk

What’s the point of this pain?I already was in painI was trying so hard to do betterAnd you just hurt me more… And I think part of the reasonIt burns so muchIs you’re so obsessedWith your fucking image You’re well-known in your boy’s clubFor helping people in needYet you found me in needAnd emotionally murdered…

Shadorma Tuesday

4:20a.m. What better time to write my first Shadorma. Breaking Up With Not My Boyfriend It’s overNow I won’t get toSee his blueEyes sparkleOr leave purple love bites onThe crook of his neck He’s so madSaid he’s done with meHe’ll neverTalk to meThen blocked my cell phone numberAlways stonewalling Well, you knowI’m quick to temperSo…

Karma

When I was 16I was with Victor…And also Luis. Once, Luis insistedWe go eat at Mimi’s(Victor’s work)In front of Victor Luis saidIf I really loved himI wouldn’t care how Victor felt So, I agreed.We went out to Mimi’s.Luis and I were seated. Victor came to clear the table.His hands shookHe dropped a forkHe dropped a…

Gossip (maybe nsfw)

Oh, go ahead, babeSpout your nasty shitDo you really thinkAnyone believes it? Tell them I’m a whoreWe both know the truthYou hate me cause IDon’t wanna fuck with you Tell them I’m a slutGo for the first punchTell them I eat dickOn sourdough for lunch Say I “kill babies”*That’ll rile them upSlander me becauseYou’re hurt…

Return

Return my loveOr return my heartI insisted He refused, soI stopped returningHis calls He returned the favor Guess now I have toReturnTo the dating pool Written for Weekend Writing Prompt #267 by Sammi Cox. (The prompt is actually several weeks old, but I didn’t notice until I was done writing.) =D

Lessons From Nature Haibun

Supple Opal Surrounded by supple spring hens on the first day of school, I can’t help but wonder, am I not attractive anymore? Autumn Valley hikeBarren Yosemite FallsZero water drops I walk around campus, feeling like a ghost. A stunning twenty-something-year-old is hiding behind the art building, crying on the phone. “Why am I not…

Green Eyes

You think I’m jealous of your new girl When I’m concerned about her She’s going to get her heart ripped out And I would never try to alert her I’m sure you’ve told her that I’m crazy Warnings would fall on deaf ears You think I’m jealous of your new girl Cause she’s got a…

Ghost

A very wise mentorOnce said to me,“A strong woman knowsthat you can love someoneand still let them go.” ILove you.Do you know?I don’t think so.Does it matter, though?Rumors say I ghostedBut this was between us twoWhile it’s true I stopped respondingWe both knew we had gotten toxic Still, feels like I’ll never get over you….