Taking Risks

Lately, I’ve been afraid that I’ll retract back into my hermit crab shell. I’ve been trying so hard to heal, reconnect with old friends, and make new connections, but I keep inadvertently chasing people away. Some of the things I’ve been through are so intense, it’s hard to know how much I can share with…

Alamere Falls

The sun is barely rising over the Palomarin trail head parking lot as I pull in. According to the article, this trail head leads to one of only two tide falls in California. A tide fall, I’ve just learned, is a waterfall that flows directly into the ocean. (Years later, I must note that there…

Kintsugi

“Kintsugi,” he calls to me, “Come here.” “What did you just say?” “Kintsugi. That’s my name for you: Kintsugi.” “What?” “I read that in Japan, when something is broken, it gets repaired with gold, and it’s called kintsugi.” “Okay…” “And it’s like you, because, you’ve been through so much, you should be broken, but you’re…

15 Mile Hike

In the name of self-care, but more-so in the name of calming this beast named PTSD, I brought my ass to the hiking trail at the crack of dawn, again. Determined to hike at least 15 miles, again. Before my cousin and I got into our last big fight, I shared one of my secrets…