Trying AI Images for Fun

I just so happened to come across this comprehensive post on artificial intelligence image generators by Mr. Justin Wagner: A.I. Image Generators: First Impressions or How I learned to stop worrying and love A.I., and was instantly intrigued. I had to give it a try, especially since it requires so little brain power, which I am…

Different

I wish I could cryThe way the other girls doMy pain won’t relent I wish I could cryTill my sockets withered upDropped their dead marbles Wish I could submitThe way the other girls doTrade my fears for theirs Dime a dozen babesSweet candy chicks fit the moldMy pain won’t relent Form: Another troiku, sort of…

PTSD and Resilience

“At the end of the day, we can endure much more than we think we can.” -Frida Kahlo Frida is my favorite artist, hands-down. It seems like most people who I mention her to have never even heard of her. At best, they may have her of her husband, Diego Rivera. When Frida realized Diego…

Give and Take (blog post)

One thing that’s hard about blogging, and about life in general, is the fact that I always feel like I need to pretend to be feeling better than I am. I’ve learned the hard way not to share my real feelings candidly. People run away, which I guess makes sense, cause I have PTSD. My…

Obsession

AlonePracticed yogaSwallowed my happy pillsTried acupuncture, therapyAte right DepressedP. T. S. D.There’s no one here with meEveryone says that they love meDo they? AfraidTo go outsideFeels like I’m gonna dieAt least I am safe on my ownIndoors FranticState of panicI don’t feel like myselfMind travels back through timeTriggered FlashbacksThat wasn’t meI said things I don’t…

Quiet

Do you wanna know why IDon’t talk about it? When I tell people the reasonI have PTSDThey stare with gaping eyes likeI’m a Hollywood movie scene It feels like they care moreAbout the storyThan they careAbout me Do you Wanna know the deets?Is my story juicy?Gossip worthy?Which parts are my fault?And how much did I…

I Am Kintsugi

I am Victoria Falls Nothing stops my flow No man can ever keep me From getting where I need to go I was raised in the Mojave Desert In low-income housing Got my first full-time job At Mcdonald’s, age 15 Fell in love with the line cook Working with me He didn’t speak English, but…

Goodbye, Yellow Brick Road

It’s 2013And we’re going to VegasFor our anniversaryHe says it will beThe trip of our dreamsAnd even hints atAn engagement ring I tell him I can’t wait to seeThe Yellow Brick Road again.It was my favorite attractionAt the MGM GrandWhen I was a little girl. He asks me what I’m talking aboutHe doesn’t remember an…

Monroe

“You’re so fucking hot;I’ll lick all of your tattoos.” He says, babe, I’ve got them everywhere, From my neck to my ass crack– Are you gonna lick that, too? I stare at my phone, and blush. Well, are you? It is 2022. Everyone’s doing it. I crack up, and tell him I didn’t expect him…

Not Sex

We both said we were committed And that turned out to be a lie From my perspective, you got mad at me For contemplating suicide, But I do that every day Don’t you know that’s why I stay so high? And I don’t always know how I survive, But I seem to find a way….