Drowning

Drowning Let’s try approaching it from a different angle. I remember love, before love turned my real life story into something that is indecent to write down. Once upon a time, love murdered me. He grabbed me from my vibrant life, and ripped me apart at the seams. Once I was split, he tried to…

Arkquains

RoseDaisySunflowerTiger lily Bought myself flowersDon’t know what to feed them, thoughSugar, lemon, pizza dough?What do flowers eat? Well spent moneyDopamineTill theyWilt SadDepressedSo lonelyFace full of tears I thought we were friendsTurns out it was all pretendI didn’t want it to endYou made me happy Alone againHeartbrokenHopelessScared JumpScrambleRun down hillTake a deep breath Spot the waterfallIt’s…

Kintsugi

“Kintsugi,” he calls to me, “Come here.” “What did you just say?” “Kintsugi. That’s my name for you: Kintsugi.” “What?” “I read that in Japan, when something is broken, it gets repaired with gold, and it’s called kintsugi.” “Okay…” “And it’s like you, because, you’ve been through so much, you should be broken, but you’re…

A Start

JC My journal may as well just say the sentence “I can’t cope with this” Over and over and over again Forever. I have a beer in the fridge. I don’t know… well, I do know exactly how that happened. I’m always worried the alcohol will kill me, and now it’s spring and the river…