Joshua

BrotherRemember me?It’s been such a long timeSince I’ve talked to you on the phoneYou know? Hello?Where did you go?Do ashes dissipateThroughout the entire universeOr stay? SometimesWe all still cryI hope you’re happy nowThat you’ve escaped this awful lifeFor good Are youFlying aroundOver a waterfallSwimming the depths of the oceanOr where? You saidCarpe diemLike you knew…

Karma

When I was 16I was with Victor…And also Luis. Once, Luis insistedWe go eat at Mimi’s(Victor’s work)In front of Victor Luis saidIf I really loved himI wouldn’t care how Victor felt So, I agreed.We went out to Mimi’s.Luis and I were seated. Victor came to clear the table.His hands shookHe dropped a forkHe dropped a…

Ben, Rich, and Pat

This post is just for clarity, in case any of my readers are confused (all five of you haha)… not that I feel an obligation to explain myself, but okay maybe I do. Maybe I want to explain. I’ve been through like three breakups in the past year. I’ve been writing poetry about three different…

Dissonance

Between his screaming, and the baby’s,How am I supposed to hear my own thoughts?He is pacing back and forth in front of us, bleeding rage.I wrap the baby in my arms, ready to shield her with my bodyIn case he throws anything else our way. Between the computer screen, and the sofa, and the mess,My…

Turn

Tears streamed down my face as I navigated the path behind him, hiking to the sound of nothing but our boots crunching the ice-crusted snow. Gazing from a redwood branch to a sprig of snow plant, I wondered how it could be possible to feel so depressed while surrounded by such stunning scenery. Before we…

Stonewalls

Recovery lostHopeless addiction to youIt’s become toxicYour stone walls poison my heartWhy can’t we communicate? Friends with benefitsDon’t want a relationshipBut how are we friends?We can’t get close or go outYou’re just borrowing my warmth I might find some peaceIf I could leave you aloneThis is killing meHow dare you drink up my loveWithout reciprocating…

First Kiss

People have warned me that jumping into something new isn’t the best idea immediately after ending something toxic. I know, but, this heartbreak is hard to handle on my own, and he’s treating me just right. It’s as if someone gave him an instruction manual on how to love me. We laugh and talk for…

Convenience

TextMessageMorning, babeHeart skips a beat Such a fool for youI’ll do anything you sayYou can have me night or dayJust a text away Wanna cuddleCome snuggleYou’re hotDamn DingIt’s youButterfliesPanic attack Say you want me tooWe’re perfect for each otherSo let’s love one anotherLet’s be more than friends You need to thinkTake it slowFor nowK? ButWe…

Cold Feet

Waiting to feel safe with youYou seem to be just rightRight like all the other menMen who left me by day light I try to hide my insecuritiesInsecurities might spoil thingsThings that work out for almost everyoneEveryone else wears wedding rings You’re adorable, but I’m silentSilent because I don’t know how to expressExpress that I…

Want Vs Need

I’ve always loved the state fair.The crowds.The lights.The smell of fried sweets in the air.All of it is bittersweetWithout you here.Young couplesAre in loveI smile at themWishingIt would have been us.But I’m here with someone else,Someone who doesn’t define meBy the week that you define me by.He knows I’m worth more thanMy worst momentsHe looks…