Absence

My hearing that I’ve been waiting nearly two years for is tomorrow. If I win, I’ll be paid for all of that time, plus three years of back pay. This is why I’ve been so scarce on WordPress. It’s hard to think about anything else. It feels like my life depends on winning. My lawyer…

1am Pantoum

Full of pain, I hiked for milesThrough the winter frostAttempting to revive my smileSlowly wandering, not lostThrough the winter frostCarrying my broken heartSlowly wandering, not lostTil I wound up back at the startCarrying my broken heartAlong the healing trailTil I wound up back at the startProgressing quickly as a snailAlong the healing trailI paused and…

Looking Forward to Apathy

Can’t wait to feel apathetic To forget how sudden, overwhelming Panic attacks steal my breathFlashbacks rip away my peaceIt feels inescapable but I’veSurvived this before, and willHeal from these wounds, tooSomeday I’ll get over you Written for Sammi Scribbles Weekend Writing Prompt: Write a poem in exactly 40 words using the word “apathy” https://sammiscribbles.wordpress.com/2023/01/28/weekend-writing-prompt-296-apathy/

Humpty’s Side of the Story

Humpty had been depressed all FallThe Queen had stopped Returning his callsTheir summer romanceAnd her silky skinOccupied his Imagination Humpty just could not cope at allSo one day he Leapt off a wallAll the Queen’s secrets And all the Queen’s sinsWould fall with HumptyAnd die with him Written for The Procrastinators Weekly Writing Prompt: write…

Antoinette Cosway

This will be a selfish, self-indulgent post- is that redundant? My hearing is next week. I haven’t been able to sleep the last two nights. You know how it is when you’re so exhausted, and want to sleep so bad, and try, but your brain just won’t turn all the way off? I’ve hiked 35…

Signal Lost

Woke up in the country Hours away from you Watched sunrise from patio Over ice-crusted car Wish I could stay There are never enough Miles between us You take the city Lights, girls, drugs, bars The novelty’s all yours I’ll keep my heart Written for Quadrille #168 by dVerse: https://dversepoets.com/2023/01/23/quadrille-168/ Posting this from my phone,…

Published from the bar

Vodka cranberry Borrowed Kaepernick jersey So American

Technical Difficulties

This morning, I thought my internet was out, which would have made sense, as I did not pay my bill on time. As it turns out, the issue was with my computer. Long story short, I will no longer be able to use WordPress on my laptop. It may take me a while to learn…

Watch Your Back

When I Bite Hurt me beforeNow I’m five steps aheadProvoke me to record my roarMy bite will endYour war Form: Marianne

Calm Scars (nsfw)

And now, silence.The rain has paused. This eye of the stormReminds me of usIn our calm phase Waking up to texts from youAnd the way all my bloodWould drain down my spineThen fly back up as butterfliesEvery time you called me“Babe” Before I met youI knew the cycles of abuseLove bombing, honeymoon,Calm, tension building The…