Lately, I’ve been afraid that I’ll retract back into my hermit crab shell. I’ve been trying so hard to heal, reconnect with old friends, and make new connections, but I keep inadvertently chasing people away. Some of the things I’ve been through are so intense, it’s hard to know how much I can share with anyone else without overwhelming them. People love hearing about my good times and adventures, but it seems like I’m supposed to keep the rest to myself. I wish I could find the right person to share it all with, but at this point, it’s getting hard to trust that anyone will stick around for very long. I find myself cutting partners off before they get a chance to get too close, before we risk breaking our hearts.
Waterfall in Spring
Cutting through my cliff-side trail
I’m afraid to leap!
The prose and haiku poem above were written for today’s Haibun Wednesday prompt by Go Dog Go Cafe.