September Song

Summer’s over; autumn’s here; fire season’s over, and the heat wave has subsided. With the diminished risk of sunburn, I set out for a twelve mile hike around the lake– my first long hike of September, finally. Sacramento SunRaises pink and orange huesHappy hippy hike Strolling through the old olive grove, the phrase “gold country”…

Dawn Haiku

First week of autumnDesperate for a long hikeHurry up, sun, rise This haiku kind of just popped in to my head right now, as I am waiting for the sun to rise so I can go hiking.

That Pain

This is that pain that you can write with That pain you can change lives with The kind of pain to turn a person kind The cruel pain that can make an angel cruel The kind I can barely even see through So much power in this pain It feels more powerful than me Like…

Depressive Episode

I’m taking a mini break from writing for a few days or so. (This post doesn’t count.) I want to catch up on reading posts before writing anything substantial of my own. This might take me a few more days. If you notice me going through a bunch of your posts at once, this is…

Straight Talk on Suicide

I just came across the post Suicidality and Other People’s Perspective by Ashley Peterson, and have so much to say, I thought I’d better just write my own post. As someone who has been formally diagnosed with CPTSD (and a bunch of other acronyms), chronic suicidality has been a reality for me for more than…

Guilty

Blatant bold-faced lie“I just need to be alone”Five minutes laterI’m flirting with someone elseThinking, he’s so hotMaking sure to play it calm(Wish I had with you)Lust punches me in the gutChased by sudden guiltTelling myself it’s okayI’m sure you’ve moved onPerhaps this firefighterCan help me get over you This was originally going to be my…

Short Six Mile Hike

The one thing that actually seems to help my PTSD more than anything is exercise. So, since my mental health has been poor lately, and since I haven’t been hiking enough since I sprained my tailbone several weeks ago, I decided to force myself to go hiking today. I usually love taking long hikes. In…

PTSD and Resilience

“At the end of the day, we can endure much more than we think we can.” -Frida Kahlo Frida is my favorite artist, hands-down. It seems like most people who I mention her to have never even heard of her. At best, they may have her of her husband, Diego Rivera. When Frida realized Diego…

Give and Take (blog post)

One thing that’s hard about blogging, and about life in general, is the fact that I always feel like I need to pretend to be feeling better than I am. I’ve learned the hard way not to share my real feelings candidly. People run away, which I guess makes sense, cause I have PTSD. My…

Questions about WordPress

I’d like to think there’s no such thing as a dumb question, but in case these are, please forgive me 😉 People who manage more than one blog– for example, a poetry blog, a photography blog, and a mental health journal-type blog– is there any way to manage separate blogs in one place? Or do…